the return of clara // new year's whatnot

I'm back (vaguely). things RL are mostly good but they're busy, so I haven't been on LJ or ao3 or even tumblr all that much recently. just that tiny update to introduce my 2018 goal tracking post. (feel free to comment; I'm mostly making this post for myself though, haha)

2018 goals:

-write & post at least 1 piece of writing to ao3 every month

-respond to unanswered comments on ao3

-finish the it's our resistance // you can't resist us series

-finish my got s1-7 historamedy365 claim (before april 25 (?))

-complete my got historamedy365 drabbles fanfic tropes claim

-declutter my apartment (a great feat, tbh)

-pass the classes that I take (inc. math 131+132)

-continue with my newly-begun weight watchers journey 

(inc. attending my meeting every week I'm at home)

-read the bible (inc. youversion's 21-day february challenge)

-get to (and remain at) an even 0$ balance on my credit card

-personally knit or crochet at least 1 christmas present

february goals:

-get 5k+ steps as many days as possible

-get 1k+ steps every day

-knit at least one row a day

-read the bible every day

-femslash february

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    Starve the Ego, Feed the Soul by the Glitch Mob

the witcher | tarot cards prompt table

[community profile] femslashficlets  | ends 1/31/2021 

3/6: 0/22

1.The Magician - A sudden solution, as if by magic - but it may be just an illusion.
2.The High Priestess - Secrets and hidden circumstances stand in the way and need to be understood.
3.The Empress - The gentle power that still rules, almost unnoticed and rarely opposed.
4.The Emperor - You're up against real power, so yield or suffer the consequences.
5.The Hierophant - The dependency on approval from an elevated dignity.
6.The Lovers - Deeply felt mutual attraction - for as long as it lasts.
7.The Chariot - Triumph - but beware of its consequences at length.
8.Strength - Strength of a kind that's superior because of its clever application.
9.The Hermit - The lesson and reward, but also misfortune, of solitude.
10.Wheel of Fortune - An uncertain outcome, with an aftermath to be carefully considered.
11.Justice - Justice without a blindfold is not always fair.
12.The Hanged Man - Great personal sacrifice that still doesn't hurt much.
13.Death - A costly loss - sometimes, but not always, the death of someone.
14.Temperance - Moderation in all is ultimate persistence.
15.The Devil - The pain and delight of giving in to temptation.
16.The Tower - A spectacular ambition that ends with disaster.
17.The Star - Time to pause and reflect, contemplate what's precious and what's not.
18.The Moon - Longing for the sake of longing, and the hope of fulfillment.
19.The Sun - Great resources at your disposal, but constrain yourself since it's possible to have too much.
20.Judgement - Ultimate judgement, whether we welcome it or not.
21.The World - Success in anything worldly, but not for free.
0.The Fool - Blissful carelessness, the power of ignorance.

asoiaf/game of thrones | queer women's literature prompt table

[community profile] femslashficlets | ends 5/31/2020

2/7: 0/15


1.I feel I stand in a desert with my hands outstretched, and you are raining down upon me. Patricia Highsmith, The Price of Salt
2.The realization of great mutual love can at times be so overwhelming a thing, that even the bravest of hearts may grow fearful. Radclyffe Hall, The Well of Loneliness
3.You have come to do an autopsy and at the first excision found a beating heart. R. Erica Doyle, Proxy
4.Our bones ache only while the flesh is on them. Djuna Barnes, Nightwood
5.Then they took the last step together, and when she kissed her, her mouth as warm as summer, the taste of her sweet and clear, she knew, at last, that she was home. Malinda Lo, Ash
6.Stand and face me, my love, and scatter the grace in your eyes. Sappho
7.That conversation we were always on the edge / of having, runs on in my head. Adrienne Rich, Twenty-One Love Poems
8.when she looks at me / i float in a warm lake / feel my muscles go weak with want Pat Parker, My Lover Is a Woman
9.But on the wild nights who can call you home? Only the one who knows your name. Jeanette Winterson, Oranges are Not the Only Fruit
10.We have been raised to fear the yes within ourselves, our deepest cravings. Audre Lorde, Uses of the Erotic: The Erotic as Power
11.I want to possess you completely— / Your jade body /And your promised heart. Wu Tsao
12.the moonlight striped her, marked out places where the whispering thing would slip through and she would unfold. Helen Oyeyemi, White is for Witching
13.The border is longing; when both have fallen in love but still haven’t said anything. Tove Jansson
14.I knew that I couldn't lie beside her, without wanting to touch her. I couldn't have felt her breath upon my mouth, without wanting to kiss her. And I couldn't have kissed her, without wanting to save her. Sarah Waters, Fingersmith
15.I tell you this / to break your heart, / by which I mean only / that it break open and never close again Mary Oliver, Lead


asoiaf/game of thrones | janelle monae lyrics prompt table

[community profile] femslashficlets table | requested + confirmed | claims post

it's been a long time, femslash prompt fills, but here I am.  
Update: I know I let this lapse, but I'm keeping the prompts because I like them. I might finish more of them at some point.

c. 6/25: 3/15 works

1.Little rough around the edges, but I keep it smooth
2.Pink like the halls of your heart (Daenerys/Sansa - madchrine)
3.Mess me up, yeah, but no one does it better
4.Crown on my head but the world on my shoulder (Brienne/Sansa - madchrine)
5.She'll have you falling harder than a Sunday in September (Daenerys/Sansa - madchrine)
eye on the sparrow (Rated T. 690 words)
6.Heaven is betting on us
7.But I need to know if the world says it's time to go
8.Am I a sinner with my skirt on the ground? (Daenerys/Sansa - madchrine)
9.You better know what you're fighting for (Brienne/Sansa - madchrine)
queen in the crypts (Rated T. 500 words)
10.Tell me are you bold enough to reach for love? (Brienne/Sansa - madchrine)
tell me are you bold enough (to reach for love) (Rated T. 1,000 words)
11.We'll make a million memories - all incredible
12.So dress me up I'll like it better if we both pretend
13.Come, let me kiss you right there wake you up like sunrise (Daenerys/Sansa - madchrine)
14.Dance in the trees paint mysteries
15.These eyes long to make you a perfect work of art

ships to do (at least once):



I'm back (vaguely). things RL are mostly good but they're busy. (feel free to comment; I'm mostly making these posts for myself though.) this tags off my earlier goals post.

march goals:

-have an average of 5k+ steps daily for the month

-get 7k+ steps 25 out of 31 days (habitica 7k challenge)

-attend all my class sessions, therapy sessions, & ww meetings

-read the bible every day (current streak of 50 days!)

-have only 7 or fewer yellow days on ww app

-make at least 15 more icons for historamedy365 claim

-write and post at least two chapters of writing to ao3

-use habit tracking apps

-use lucktastic app every day

-use walkr every day


money problems = commissions open on tumblr

hey, lj. I know I've been sparse, mostly for school and family emergencies (approximately 500 of them), but I wanted to make this announcement here, too:

I'm officially asking for money, either by donation or as payment for writing commissions. I have a much more specific post on my main tumblr here. this is my commissions tumblr. I'll write any ship in my armada list (tagged on the side). I tried to make the prices low so it'd be more likely to attract people.

more info about commissions here. paypal here.

Game of Thrones: Femslash Drabbles 2018

for @femslash100

1. Mutual pining 2. Sharing a bed 3. Enemies to lovers 4. Friends to lovers 5. Fake dating
6. Amnesia 7. Kidfic 8. Meeting the family/parents 9. Reunions 10. Road trip
11. Role reversal 12. Soul bonding/soul mates 13. Time travel 14. First times 15. Truth or Dare
16. Darkfic 17. Alternate Universe 18. Sex Pollen 19. Miscommunication 20. Proposal
21. Domestic (curtainfic) 22. Futurefic 23. Bodyswap 24. Crossover 25. Hurt/comfort
26. Wingfic 27. Marriage of convenience 28. Cross-dressing 29. Fantasies/dreams 30. Huddling for warmth

[warning for depression, anxiety, alcohol, disassociation]

tfw you can't sleep and end up actually being awake at Normal Adult Human Waking Hours on the day you're p much supposed to have an exam...but you're not actually sitting that final because you can't save that failing grade and this semester got you too exhausted and way too emotionally done with maths to try to get a legitimately decent mark so it's really just a lot of sadness and disassociation and trying to not feel like a total failure

also now you've got one beer left which you can't drink until tonight because sure you're a sad college student but this recent depressive episode got you inching closer to addiction and you already know what that feels like so you need to fucking stop

and you have to decide whether to go to breakfast - you can wait and go to ihop or go to the nice place across the street that you haven't been to since your girlfriend moved, what, a couple weeks ago, but that's only open until two thirty so sleeping would be out of the question - or to sleep

idk if it's a better idea to focus on one of my online classes today instead of the final or to literally just go to bed. either way I'm gonna be doing something other than that fuckin final but I don't know which is marginally healthier or which I want more. I'll be tired and sad all day anyway?? who am I?? what do I want?? how long have I been awake?

I don't feel like texting this all to my dad or my gf so here I am lj

I wrote a fic in the middle of the night tho, should I just do this, just write fic til I actually feel human again?

[also tho may is always bad because of mother's day so anyone who wants to mom me feel free I'm sure I'll need it]

edit: have gone and gotten breakfast. coffee in my system but still getting increasingly tired. will need to go to the market later but am going to go lie in bed and play gummy drop until I start falling asleep. should be pretty quick but...wish me luck.

historamedy365 2017-18: game of thrones

for historamedy365
claim dates: 4/24/17 - 4/25/18 (ext needed?)
current total: 032/100

half and half | no eyes | walking | holding something

happy | sad | smile | lights

minimalistic | monochromatic | hand gesture

sun | sport | tied up

favorite moment | having fun | my favorite pairing

far away | outside | modern

face | faith | food

green | red | blue

reading | party | busy

negative space | full body

last | lost